The Smile I Borrowed — Ayuna Dark Verse (Diary Entry 4) | The Bloody Tulip

Your laughter cuts through my silence
Like glass shattering porcelain—
So easy for you,
So effortless.
I pull on a smile that isn’t mine,
Stitched together from ivory threads,
While jealousy chews at the roots
Of everything I’m not allowed to say.

Her eyes roll,
Careless and crude,
Mockery dressed up as innocence.
But mine stay steady,
Trained like a scalpel’s edge—
Never trembling,
Even though inside
I’m bleeding where no one can see.

I am the one who pulled you back
From death’s open mouth.
I am the hands that held your life
On sterile steel,
Balanced you between breathing and gone.
And her?
She was just waiting in the hallway,
A shadow clutching your wrist
Like that means something.

The smile I wear tastes like metal,
Bitter and cold,
But it’s enough for now.
It has to be.
Until I carve my own truth
Into the fragile little bond you share—
A truth sharp enough
That you won’t be able to look away.

The wolf inside me
Watches through my borrowed smile,
Patient,
Calculating,
Waiting for the moment
When the stitches finally break.
If this ends in ruin,
Remember—
I was the one who saved you first.

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